HI Justice........I'm new to this board.......but your post jumped out at me. When I was 15.....I use to cut myself all the time. I'm 22 now...and sometimes the urge is so strong. Because for me......when crying wouldn't help and when no one would listen to me.....I always had cutting to fall back on. But It took me a long time to get out of it. And I certainly wish you well and hope that you stay safe. Like you said it's a very vicious cycle......and if you need someone to talk too just let me know. I know it's a horrible feeling to feel like no one cares. I was 15 and the advise my dad gave me was if i didn't stop acting crazy then I was going to get locked in a mental hospital. So yea.....hope you're feeling better.