These PC boards are pretty safe place to share if you think it would help to talk about what happened. I really think that most of us don't have any room to judge. xD

Glad to hear that nobody is in danger currently, and we'll all root for you staying safe. I hope you can find the information or peace that will help you recover from whatever you experienced.

Like Homeira said, we all deserve to forgive ourselves. It takes time and is easier said than done. But you do deserve it.