I love each and every one of you. These past couple of months have been the darkest time of my life in years. I was in a deep depression. I would have random crying spells, I would stay in my room for days without a shower, I was sleeping as much as I could, and having SI thoughts I couldn't control. I came to the message boards for support, and that is exactly what I recieved. When I'm here, I felt as though I was not alone. That there were other people out there with thoughts and feelings just like me. I was comforted and felt like I finally met people who actually understood me. Throughout this time of me having my meds adjusted, and starting therapy again, if I needed nelp, someone was here to help. I am so grateful for those who personally helped me, and even those that just gave hugs.
I'm actually feeling better. I've had a whole week of being more productive at work, taking regular showers and leaving my house to go shopping for things I need. I know life isn't perfect and people recover at different paces but I'm finally getting there where I feel functional and happiness again.
So thank you all for your help. I don't know where I would be without you.