thanks Tigger. I don't know what will happen with my pdoc and I'll definitely be home tomorrow night so I'll post whatever is decided. This is a horrible week for me to have to go in b/c my mom is away and I'd have to board my cats. That is arranged but I hope to cancel it. Being here another week feeling bad would be really hard but not boarding a frail, sick cat would be less stressful. Also if I'm doing ECT I don't want to drive myself to the hospital because when I came home someone would have to come up to get me with my mom and then drive my car back since I wouldn't be allowed to drive at that point. Since it is 2 hours away that is asking a lot from someone.

But my dr may say no, it must be this week and if she does then I'll go. But I'm definitely not going tomorrow because I can't leave the cats home alone and nobody else could catch the one who is scared of everyone but me to take them to the vet for me.

Tomorrow is just a big, mixed up day. "Are you going to keep seeing me as a patient?" followed by "I have some strong opinions about where treatment is going to go next". Which she encourages but may not so much if she's transferring me to another dr. There may be many tears.Probably not because I'm so numb but it wouldn't be my first surprise from this episode.