So my med change has left me anxious and have restarted "bad" habits. My husband's family is now around and ALWAYS talking about weight loss. It's not directed at me but it sure feels it. I'm struggling as I do this time of year given Halloween, thanksgiving and Christmas is coming up. So if I do say **** it and become the best anorexic possible it won't be out of character as a stress induced mixed episode is coming soon. At least I'm not hearing ED voices since abilify. If my ed becomes raging a med change will be required. On top of that I can no longer find a pharmacy that doesn't have the stupid triangle Lamictal, which I can't take. So possibly a med change there. Which is adding to an additional stress. Plus I'm trying to save for an Xbox one for my son for Christmas. I'm smoking again which is not cost effective. I don't see pdoc until November and hopefully I've stockpiled enough circle shaped Lamictal until then. I have no idea how to approach all this. I'm thinking a nutritionist maybe in order but I don't know how to find one and if my insurance even covers one. How do I deal with all this stress?