I am on day 11 of lexapro after being on it for years until January. My pdoc decided to try some new drugs and they did not work out for me so here I am again..begged to get back on the lexapro. So.... hopefully I am on my way to improvement.

Pdoc was on vacation last week ... luckily I have had family that has been supportive.

I am tired though of asking family to be there and to be lasting by virtue of ativan for anxiety and ambien and ativan to sleep, etc...

I have gone through lately losing a brother-in-law and a hospitalization (3 days) for kidney problems, sepsis, dehydration....and now a room change at work in to a claustrophobic space.... still functioning off of ativan. .. and pdoc on vacation and some concerns with pdoc... I need to work out as I get out of this depression.

I am so tired. And I feel so lonely. I live alone ....with 2 kitties...and now my work space is rather in secluded. I am out of bed but would like to go back to bed. I need to not be so alone but am not sure how to go about it. My sis came to town yesterday to spend the day with me.

Anyone ever had the problem with the lonliness and what did you do with it. Did the antid's help after a bit. I used to be on the internet more and have lost some friends that I spent time with ... my choice ...but have not found a way to fill the space.

I have lost 30 lbs which is good but not under these circumstances.

I just need to keep going to work ...... yikes... doing my job.

I went swimming with my sis... I have been a regular at the gym til my hospitalization and now I am planning this week to be back at least 50% 3 days a week.

Suggestions....

I have spent almost every day at my parent's house for dinner. Like I need to make the contact. I did go out two nights with friends and will go out one night this week with friends. I hope.