Hi Candybear,

Thank you for your reply!! I'm so glad no one has yelled at me for being wack-o!!

Yes, I guess I feel manic a bit right now. But I've never been diagnosed as Bipolar. I've been diagnosed with Social Anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress. I don't really know what happened to cause this "trip". It was just a lot of stress.....the stress of seeing in front of your face how you've utterly failed in your life and knowing that all your dreams are gone....that there's nothing left. And it really hurt to be back in my family home...where I was once an innocent little girl with dreams for the future and the whole world still wide open to her. And now.....I receive Welfare and I've run out of options to do anything.

I don't like feeling this way. Even my eyesight is blurry and I have to keep looking away to readjust my vision. And I feel buzzed! My whole body is BUZZING. And I don't feel like I'm connected at all. What the heck happened? I'm not usually this way.

Thank you for caring. I wish you all the best!!

Hugs,
Sandy