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Originally Posted by Lost1956
I just don’t care anymore. I had to relocate for work a year ago to a totally different climate and population area. I lost my therapist and a Saturday morning coffee person I could talk to about almost anybody. Where I’m at the therapy is totally different and so impersonal. I’ve stopped taking my meds because they seem to not help. I stopped going to therapy because it seemed worthless and I didn’t like the therapist. I now hate my job. I am in pain all the time in my feet, legs and now one of my hands. I can’t relax and just eat drink and sleep to hide in. I even bought a new large recliner to relax in and can’t even do that. I just wish I was dead. Not suicidal but just wish I was dead. I try to get back to the state I was in before moving but just seem to not be able to.
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Hi Lost,
I'd highly recommend making an appointment with your M.D. right now to check out those pains you're feeling. Being depressed from being in constant pain is not unusual! You may also find that the fact of taking that action in itself helps.
Unfortunately, antidepressants often don't work at all. Therapy helps, statistically speaking, but I'm told that the best predictor of therapy success is the quality of your relationship with the therapist. That suggests to me that you try to find a new one that you have a better connection with.
The other thing that I think is really important is for you to actively explore what options you might have for feeling better. It is very typical and understandable for someone feeling terrible to put themselves in the hands of the experts and just do what they say. For depression, at least, I think that this is really a mistake. You have to find your own way out of it to a large extent. Here are some notes that might help:
http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf
This is what I think is the best overall plan. I hope you get some inspiration of things to try, including checking for purely medical problems first of all
http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html
- vital