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Originally Posted by Claritytoo
You sound depressed. I think talking to your t about all these thoughts would be a good thing. There was a time when I was very depressed and thought of leaving but I didn't. And I have had an entire life since than. I am glad I stayed. And if I had those thoughts now at this point in my life I would talk to a therapist because I know the deep depression will pass, just like it did decades ago. I hope you start to feel better. It sounds like you have people around you who love you.
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it was once very bad like this and i finally made peace with living. it has been seven years now and we are not any happier in the world. it seems to be a better place, yet i have so much "evidence" that it is not. my support system i have built continually fails me. im afraid if i tell t what i am thinking, she will hospitalize me. i have been working hard at getting healthy, but that just scares everybody inside so bad. we stayed home all weekend and isolated and were at peace. this trying to be part of the world is too difficult for us. just writing about this makes me numb and nauseous and my head spin. i attempt to nurture us as my t tells me to, but it is just so overwhelming. i dont know how i am supposed to go back to work today.