Hello,
I don't know if this is the right section to post my question or not but really i need help.

I have very strange problem I noticed it 2 years ago. I noticed that there are some days in which I'm somehow different, not totally different but I get really some nice changes, I'm more confident, energetic, talkative, funny, and I can deal with people more easily. Also, I can concentrate easily and think about anything quickly... I am also very convincing and if I deal with someone who I don't like much I can handle this and even have jokes with him easily.

This state where I'm confident and energetic as I mentioned was only happening some days and the other days I get back to me again, not very bad but without this powerful confidence.

Last year, I started to get this state more and more. It looked like I was able to "catch" it. Especially at the beginning of this year I started to get it almost daily and that made me very happy and my friends told me I changed a lot. But, If I get this state and I slept when I woke up I lose it again! I have to catch it again! I know it seems very crazy but that what happens.

The real problem is I get used to be in this state because I love myself being with it and in the days in which I'm not in this state I became somehow unsociable, not confident even in my walk and even if I'm with my best friends or my mum, I can't concentrate easily, and if I tried to think about anything it feels like something blocks my mind... I become very weak and I get severe anxiety and even if I'm laughing I'm not happy but also laughing gives me headache.

Since last July and I get the state where I'm confident and energetic only about 3-4 days! the rest of days I'm at the other state that my friends noticed I become weak.

My question is... Am I bipolar? Is the state I get is hypomania? why I can't catch this state right now ?

Sorry for talking a lot and sorry also for my poor English.. hope someone can help me.