The urge to cut is driving me insane. these pools of emotions that are inside me. i cant control. i can not make any sense. i am so angry right now... part of it is because of you...u havent replied to my email...why? i feel so rejected...a burden...like u dont care...u just have to acknowledge that u got the email thats it..but its all ****ing games with everyone..mind games that i cant figure out...i know u read my email...u r just like everyone else...!!!!!u r no ****ign different...cant u just be...genuine...
i am hating myself right now...i am hating God rightnow..cuz i am still freakin alive...
i am dying right now...this pain i can not stand...this hopeless does not leave me..i literally carry this pain with me everywhere...i physcailly feel it...it makes me sick !
i am reminded again and again..that i am not wanted here..by everyone around me...i am out of place...i am wrong...wrong...wrong....all so wrong...i can not make it right...i am trying...and i feel today even you have just ignored me...why?
trust me i have enough ppl to do that for me..to ignore me..to mock me..to putme in my place..