I think that from time to time, we all hate ourselves. Even though we really should care and love and admire ourselves 100% of the time, it is often very hard to do because of other things going on, or something someone might of said or done without thinking how it affects us.

I can tell you are passionate about love and life, and in order to help you stay focused on what is really important to you (the love and life I just mentioned), think about how many friends you have here and how much you have enriched their lives.

Think about facebook and myspace and all of those other "networking" sites and how many people would wonder about you and worry about how you are doing and what you are doing.

Remember, though, as well, while all of us are indeed real, and do truly care, there is still no replacement for face to face meeting with people. I can tell you are very personable, just from reading your posts here. You are probably a bit shy (like me) or a bit afraid of dealing with people in real life--which is okay. Just take it slow and take it easy. Realize that life does not happen in one day, that it takes time, and patience. If it happened quickly, we all would mature at 2, marry at 3, and die at 5.

Just keep your head up, mate, and relax. Things will turn around...