Secret, I believe you are doing all the right things. Pushing yourself to do activities, reaching out for support, spending time with family.

I can completely understand what you mean about the lonliness. Sometimes I can be around a bunch of people and still feel completely lonely. I actually equate this to emptiness, which is a big cause for depression.

Be proud of yourself for what you're doing. Recognize that you have some really good coping skills-- you could have chosen to completely isolate yourself. But you didn't. Stay strong like you are now... you are going to make it.