Hugs- my bipolar was not diagnosed until after my ex-husband and I decided to separate. My daughter had just turned three. For a long time, I beat myself up by allowing myself to think, "What if I had been diagnosed sooner- could I have saved my marriage?" For this reason- I delayed filing for divorce for a year to allow myself to adjust to my bipolar diagnosis. When it became apparent that our lives were separate- I then filed.

Divorce is a huge loss. However, I can say a year post official divorce- I've gotton a much better support system in place- far better then what I would have if I stayed married. So focus on your support network.

Hope your husband gets help as well. If you have any custody questions, message me. I've had both 50/50 and full-time custody.