It's very common to have Bipolar and Borderline.

Based on what you wrote ^ .. I think that certainly is borderline rearing its ugly head.

Heres the deal.. It's damn near impossible to see Borderline while your standing in the middle of it. Are you in DBT classes? DBT is where you can start to learn how to tell the difference. I have some "traits" of borderline.

Example, This happened a few weeks ago: I wasn't in the greatest place Bipolar wise and my pain was really bad. ... I said to my Husband when he walked in the door after work "I really love you and so happy your home" .... and his response is "Luv ya too " and he is going about dragging all his stuff inside.... he has his hands full and probably needs to drop it all and go pee or just wanted to sit down . I went from feeling safe secure in my marriage and that he will love me forever to the following in about 2.8 seconds ... OMG he doesn't love me, Is he mad at me? Did I do something wrong, Did I forget to do something? I burst into tears running outside , I'm so mad and hurt I want to hurt myself because I suck and I don't deserve love......Meanwhile my husband was wondering what the hell just happened

So Bipolar and Borderline are at times problematic just because they both are extreme reactions to situations and Bipolar mood flucuations.

My advice is get into classes for DBT , you can also find lots of DBT info online and many workbooks you can order online that can help you.

** FYI I think everyone can benefit from DBT .....Borderline, Bipolar or neural typicals, Its just a great skill to have*

As for Mixed? I can function a lil bit for a while when I have gone mixed. I'm capable of feeding myself and self care, But it only last at most a week and then everything implodes and I literally am a ranting raving long tailed cat in a room full of rockers. Its pure hell on earth.

I know you want a diagnosis that makes sense to you "right now" But It really impossible to wrap your head around a Diagnosis/Label when your on the " Tilt O World"

"Try" to set aside trying to finding all the right answers so you fit in this box or that one. Just focus on feeling better, Finding some stability.. so when you are on stable ground and its not quick sand or a mud pit you can "then" work on accepting whatever "diagnosis(s)" you may have.