omg Nicoleresati,
I feel for you but don't kill yourself !!!!!!call the Suicide Prevention Hotline . they will help you out .I called them many times and they help me out of committing suicide . my therapist help me too . you need coping skills . here's my list of coping skills that my therapist and I worked in counseling :
For High Anxiety
1) Physical activity
2) Deep breathing
3) Mindfulness box
4) Guided imagery
5) Progressive muscle relaxation exercises
6) Diversions
7) Counteracting thoughts
a. Think positive
b. Suicide is wrong according to God's plans
8) Relaxation techniques
9) Journaling
10) Mindfulness meditation
11) STOP technique








Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 90mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia