I feel empty. I have so much to give to people but nobody wants or needs me. I feel like I am heading for a brick wall. Financial matters are risky, I cannot find work, I can't make decisions, I feel like I am spiraling downward. I know it is depression. I know that perspectives become distorted. I know that there is some sort of classification of my multiple problems (social anxiety, low self esteem, depression, perfectionist, teetering on eating disorder, etc.) what I don't know is how to fix it. Doctors won't treat me. Counselors don't give straight answers. It feels like I am walking in a circle around the problems but not hitting the target. I feel empty.I feel lifeless I feel guilty, I feel angry but don't know who I am angry at or why.