<font color="#000088">Yeah, my cutting got me thrown in the mental hospital 3 times. The 4th time I was there, it was because of a crooked PsychDoc wanting to keep me quiet about his extra-curricular activities outside of work!(selling benzo's at rave's)But that 4th time I was out within 30 days, because I proved that I wasn't a threat to myself or anyone else. But the Mental Hospital doesn't scare me, it's a breeze compared to the life I'm living now. But it doesn't matter what I was to do anyway, the mental hospital here, has a 3-4 month waiting list already. That's how many people are going nuts where I live,and are in need of being locked up there! Sad, but true! So no matter what, they'd fix me up, and send me back home, just to do it again! That's what they use to do, until they finally realized I wasn't going to stop. Then they locked me up in there Mental Hospital. I started cutting at maybe 10-11yrs.old ( it's been so long)and now I'm 34, but I have made it 7 years now without cutting, because I didn't want to scare, and hurt my Dad anymore. But he died! So I've been trying really hard to find other excuses not to, but there not as strong as the urges, and the urges are just getting stronger! And it's kindof difficult to not want to harm myself, when I feel like I must have done something to deserve it! I just can't figure out what! </font>