I have had a few stressful days of high emotion. I almost lost the person I am falling in love with (mutual) as... well, I was pig-headed and my empathy was delayed. Since I am an extremely recent diagnosis, I have yet to receive help in regulating the more negative aspects to myself. I'm 25 biological female, polygender, more masculine. I have no idea if that will make any difference, if I should focus more on female-aimed resources or anything.

Apologies if I'm not making much sense. Painful gastrointestinal cramps and alexithymia threw me when she said she wanted to give it all another chance. Emotions didn't happen. I suppose I used them up during the past few days. I used pictures and gifs as it was over IM though, so I could show her what I knew I must be feeling somewhere.

ANYWAY! While I was trying to show her that I knew I could work on noticing issues and learn to acclimatise to function as myself, finally, I promised I would find worksheets and other resources. Before my diagnosis I already had a psychologist and I will be tapping into the city's AS and HFA resource organisation when they actually get back to my email.

Rather than twiddle my thumbs until them, I really do want to find resources for adults to work through.

I know I will do better with printout sheets, written exercises, courses, shorter duration videos, etc. than I might be with trying to take in piles of articles.

Can anybody point me in the right direction? I think the parts I should focus on first are theory of the mind, empathy work, and recognising when a person is upset or hiding to please me. Oh, emotional regulation and areas to do with executive functioning too.

My head is killing me and my feet are paddling, which is going to get sore. People are such hard work but try as I might, I can't keep away from them. I'd be happy with just her and my carer (he's also involved with her but he and I have dated in the past so aren't linked). Hide away with our cats.