Iīm sorry that you experienced abrupt changes in boundaries with your T. I experienced that as well but in some way I still feel for my T as some kind of mother figure. Sheīs around 25 years older and could by age be my mom.
Now I donīt see her anymore, as she terminated therapy but this looking for mother figures has existed for so long it has to be much more to it than just one T, one teacher and so on. Thereīs a whole pattern of searching for mother figures and I donīt really know how to fill that need. There are very deep emotions behind this I think?
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Originally Posted by musinglizzy
I really used to feel that way about my T. Now it's just memories. I didn't think I deserved her either. My self loathing has gotten worse since she made abrupt changes to our boundaries. I feel very disconnected....maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it can make it easier to leave.
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