Dear MC,
I hope it wasn't weird that I brought up that feeling unconditional love from you and T thing today. I couldn't look at you when I said it. I was scared you'd have the same negative look that T did. I'm not sure how much sense the e-mail I sent you afterward made. I just didn't want you thinking I had some delusion that you love me. I said I didn't expect it, no matter what I feel or experience (you know how I feel about you). What I didn't say is how much I wish you did feel that way. I don't mean romantically, just in a platonic way. Like the paternal thing. It's wonderful that you actually said last session that you care about me. But part of me wants to know that you care about and love me at least a fraction of how much I care about and love you. That I'm not imagining what I see in your eyes and hear in your voice...