I am literally terrified that I'm going to lose my friend. I saw her today and she is in such a bad place. The hospital she is in isn't secure enough. It would be so easy for her to run, so easy for her to get her hands on things that will hurt her.

Without realising I bought her something that could be used to cause serious harm. Luckily I managed to persuade her to tell me the plan and give me back the item in question. But she was already coming up with other plans, other things she could use. I just don't know what to do. I wish that I could stay with her 24/7. It's not an option. I thought she was going to be safe in hospital, but this is really the wrong hospital for her to be in. But a lack of beds means there is no alternative for now.

This whole thing is triggering me pretty bad tonight. I want to be there for my friend, but at the same time it is sending me crashing. I just don't know what to do