I am being abused by my father and I have bipolar and an eating disorder. My father today told me I am "retarted" mentally but I know I'm not. He has turned me into a monster because I believed all the abuse and criticism growing up. Now I hate everyone and mostly myself. I'm 22 and can't get out of my parents house because of my "problems" I think I only have bipolar because he abused me as a child and abuse can trigger mental illness. My dad thinks I'm a monster but it's really him who is. He messed me up so bad. I hope I can muster enough self love to get through this. I'm prepared to give more than I get.