hello, welcome to the AVPD forums.
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I don't really crave friendship as much as I used to. i haven't had somebody that i can call a friend for about 2 years now, and before that I always felt like I didn't belong with the people I called my friends.
The thing I crave in life is a partner, only have had one relationship for about a month, like 7 years ago. Too bad my inhibition to share my emotions with others (especially those I care for), is keeping me from even meeting a potential partner.