It's a shame you can't get to see the sea where you live. I like to go there and watch sunsets sometimes, and take photos too. I wish I had someone to go with as it's not the same on your own.

I've never smoked and never will so at least I don't have that to worry about. I don't drink either, so it's just my size that makes me unhealthy.

I hope you can keep up strengthening your legs so you can get out of the cycle you're in. I think people like us just need motivation, and I don't mean advice but some REAL help and actual actions from people that will really make a difference and make us feel like there is a way out, and it's worth trying harder. Does that make sense?