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Originally Posted by Sammy Bones
I have the same problem and can't figure it out. I want someone to know my soul so badly, but when I try to let my true self out it comes out in a ****ed up, anxiety riddled mess. Emotionally, I want to spill my heart out but it's like the logical part of my brain is saying, "No, you idiot! She will never understand. She will think you are a monster! As much as it hurts to keep it inside it's NOTHING compared to how you'll feel when you get rejected!"
If I pour my heart out and someone can't handle it and walks away I'm afraid I might go berserk.
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This exactly. The internet is the only place I've ever been able to be truly honest and real - there's a distance there, a separation that makes the sharing experience almost unreal. Which is great, no real consequences. To be blown off, ignored, criticized, condescended, or rejected by an actual person in real time....I don't know what I'd do.
I experience plenty of "post-regret" from writing insane, hysterical, or over-sharing things. It's a small comfort to think that it's anonymous and you're mostly just a username there.
Sorry to keep thread crashing.