I guess my understanding of what a therapist is for was wrong. I thought it was someone you paid to talk about anything that was on your mind that you didn't feel you could talk to friends or family about or if you just wanted an objective listener and someone to talk thru things with. I thought it was a safe, non-judgmental environment where you could say anything without being afraid of that person yelling at you or getting mad at you. If I wanted that reaction and to feel like I always had to walk on eggshells and watch what I said, I would have stayed with my toxic friends. So maybe therapy isn't for me.