I don't worry that my moods are caused by my meds but I definitely worry about the long term effects of these drugs. When I think about going med free it is usually because I get really mad and just want to be able to be myself with no meds. I get upset thinking that my natural self just isn't ok for the world and I need to be medicated so my friends and family don't have to deal with the fact that I'm different than they are.