I only went there a semester. It got to be too much. I'd skip meals rather than go to cafeteria alone. I'd hide in my room and made very friends. I dropped a class because the professor called on me in class. I'd self harm all the time. I didn't want people to know I existed do I bought an iPod to listen to as i walked so I could not acknowledge people.

I tried going to a counseling center nearby but had to wait a month before getting an appt then they said I'd have to wait another month for a regular session.

I gave up and came home.

She doesn't understand I guess that even though
I dropped out- it was mine. Something I tried to do and now she will donwhatni couldn't.

Now I'm effin crying agsin. I feel so dumb. :'(