When I'm depressed I don't care. Not that I'm not aware but I don't care. So unless I have to go somewhere I will often not bother with showers or even getting out of my pajamas for as long as I can do that. So far today I'm still in my pajamas, haven't showered, haven't combed my hair and haven't even brushed my poor teeth (yet when I'm well that would be appalling as I'm trying so hard to protect my teeth from the damage from dry mouth all these years). I just don't care.

Sometimes when manic it's also hard because I don't want to slow down and do something so boring and that means standing still and where agitation isn't helpful. It does help me calm down and sometimes helps with sleep (with both mania and depression) so on bad nights I'll force it sometimes for that reason.

Is it something like that?