Haven't been on here in a while, but appreciate all the words of wisdom(?) and sage advice. I came on here in hopes of finding like "minded" individuals who have dealt with this "disorder" and found ways to cope, deal with it and/or modify their behavior to live a semblance of a "normal" life. Advice from "victims" is ok so long as the "victims" have NPD partners/family member who knows they are NPD and are working on their relationship with them and not just standard party line... hopefully as I go through this "growth" or "modification" of my personality I can throw some tidbits of advice back out.

I've been busy moving the wife out into her own place and reading multiple books. We're trying that "Healing Separation" thing. No communication for 30 days so we can try to find ourselves to hopefully re-find each other and reconnect. But hope is hard to believe in when we're moving ***** and setting up separate finances and all that bullsh!t. I fear (ok, gut talking here... feel) she's already emotionally detached and moved on. Gotta face that fear, and hope my plan A to work it out is HER plan A and her plan A is to NOT to move on and start over. My hope is that she'll see what an awesome person i am and what she'll be missing if she moves on. <--- that didn't sound narcissistic at all.

I've also been visiting my therapist who just referred me to someone more qualified. Maybe I scared her with my brutal honesty about how I feel. Whatever, if he's a better fit for me then so be it. And then again, I may move on from him as well. He won't be the first and I'm sure far from the last. Hmmm, that might be the apathy kicking that is related to the depression.