I have a big problem in the other direction. I am living in a state that's so bad there's only one room I will use for me and the dogs. The rest is unsanitary to areally bad degree, some rooms I have not entered in 8 months. I'm surprised I am not sick from how bad it is.

Just as an example



Pdoc and T say it's just another example of neglecting and hurting myself. I don't treat myself like I have any value. I told T that I am lazy and disgusting, and she said it's a sign of serious mental illness and I need to start telling myself I'm sick, not disgusting. She keeps saying I can learn to take care of myself but sometimes it just seems hopeless.