Thank you so much guys. I never thought she had bad intentions..

Its just everyone expected so much from me. Even me. I graduated a high academic honors graduate from high school with a great GPA. I went to community college the first year until I finally decided where to go. (Financial aid paid everything at community college so it was a wise choice.) Then went to that school and everything I was already dealing with amplified.

I did get my CDA for a job I was at with early head start but I accidently let it expire. :/

I try *not* to compare myself but its so hard. Shes so successful with her career and shes married with 2 children. And then theres me. Always IP and going to T and Pdoc (which we don't discuss. its my own business) and quitting jobs because I get too overwhelmed and shut down.

Id give anything not to have bipolar. I keep tearing up today. I need to talk to T an dim happy I see her tomorrow.

Im feeling overwhelmed and self-loathing.