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Originally Posted by newday7121
Are u at point where u can name identities is it very distinct and separate from the host like Amanda said. It comes later after dx. If u dont experience it like myself it might be hard for u to relate. Different example For instance, a female with a southern accent mid 20s but u as the Host grew up in the north all ur life...at that point call her Minerva if she doesnt give u a name when u, the host ask...Do each one like this?
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thing is, things have changed over the years for me. i was much more dissociative eight years ago. for several years, i was able to hear them, feel them, talk to them, etc. and knew them by name, age, gender, etc. i could figure that out based on familiar feelings even if they didn't talk.
but when my eating disorder was managed eight years ago (there were big life changes then too and the eating disorder was way after i started hearing and feeling them as i 'knew' from childhood they existed to some degree), they pretty much disappeared except for mild things over the years. but i lost the connection with them at that point...my head went totally quiet. and now, the things i have felt or heard are not the same ones i knew then. so, i am very much confused. maybe i just have fragments and some parts or something..i have no idea.
i have been with my psychiatrist for 10 years year. not formally diagnosed with DID (but i saw something in 2003 where she wrote 'probable DID' and borderline personality disorder). as it stands now, she says i'm moving away from the borderline diagnosis and more into the dissociation and OCD, etc.(whatever that means). so, i have never done in depth therapy with her to really uncover things as i have too much anxiety generally to do things too much....and i assume i'd dissociate more if i went to her more often.