Hi Lady D. I'm glad that you found your way to the Psych Central forums. This site is a good place to discuss things that you might not have another place to talk about.

Your love for your husband comes through in what you write. I have never been married, so I am going to wait to see what advice other people have.

My heart goes out to you. I can tell that you're hurting a lot, but you don't sound like you've given up hope, which is really good.

Hugs.