I dont know what to do anymore. I have been married to a narcissist for 7 years and I feel like Ive finally reached my breaking point. The only thing keeping me alive right now are my three children. As much as I have declined emotionally within the last few months, I'm afraid I will continue to decline and not have the strength to fight. I hate my husband. Most importantly, I hate myself for allowing this to happen to me. I have become a distant mother. All I want to do is sit in my room and cry. I get my kids up for school and pick them up. I make their dinner and wash their laundry. I am not there mentally or emotionally, though. I was shopping today and broke down in the store and had to hide out in a bathroom stall for about 20 minutes because I couldn't stop crying. When I finally pulled myself together, I placed the items I was going to purchase down and left. I am starting to feel my children would be better off without me in the long run. I have absolutely nothing encouraging or positive to offer anyone anymore. Ive become a worthless person.