I've dealt with depression for 20 years. This last year and half was the worst and when I called it "hell" with my T, he replied that it was "an understatement." I've worked with my T for over six years and without getting into all the details, I know that he cares and I know he did a lot of work outside of our therapy sessions. He's the one that ultimately got me into ketamine and finally found me some relief.

There were some close calls in the last six months, even in the last year, to the point that I ended up hospitalized once. There's more there as I've asked him how things were dealing with me through that and I think I would be accurate to sum up all he said with "harrowing."

So I wrote him a thank you note. Actually two because I couldn't decide which one I thought worded things better and I just gave him both today because screw it, I couldn't decide. I'm not often very warm and fuzzy with people and less so with him, but I basically thanked him for saving my life.

But I feel anxious about it now. It's like it hit me that I was just very... I don't know the word except to say warm and fuzzy. I'm just really grateful for the extra effort he put in.

I don't really even know what I'm worried about! I guess I just wanted to say I'm worried about... something?

Anyone write their Ts a note like that? Tell me good stories LOL.