dear t: our conversation last week caused some more shifting inside me, and that's why I asked to come this week too. i want to keep the momentum going. i am just praying right now that nothing else goes wrong with this house and that the loan funds tomorrow, otherwise if it doesn't we will be moving back to the old house, well my husband will be, and you will be visiting me in the hospital because that's where I will be. I cannot handle this stress. Especially right when some really good work was starting to happen again. t I just literally want to go out in the backyard and scream and scream. I don't know what to do with this tight little ball of stress that is spinning like a saw blade in my insides trying to shred me. all the work we did getting me put back together is trying to come undone this is so stressful. i can't stand it. i can't wait to be sitting in your office thursday evening and hopefully by then this will be behind me.