I know how you feel...

I only have my mom i can talk to for support because this disorder has left me friendless. I envy those who have good, caring friends too. I recently had to quit my job too because the mood swings were nonstop, I became suicidal, etc;

It kind of sucks when you tell someone you're depressed, they assume it's just "sad", not debilitating. We're often misunderstood or not taken seriously

I wish you the best of luck