I read on fb that it is suicide prevention month. All good for raising awareness, but it frustrates me that those who have never been suicidal pretend to care with fb shares but never actually help the people at risk.

The few friends I have left tell me to ask them when I need help. The problem is, I do ask them, but when I am reaching out because I am suicidal, I do not tell them as I feel it is manipulative. So they dont realise how bad I am, but I dont want to put them in a situation that will leave them with guilt if I do succeed.

Again I hate to say it, but many I know claim "depression" over trivial matters (ie broken phone, not being able to afford a luxury), and quite honestly it makes it so much harder for us who do really suffer to be taken seriously in the community. This plain makes me mad, but also makes me feel like a sore loser.