I've been seeing my t twice a week for about a year and a half. When it started, I was deep in crisis and needed to see him twice a week for safety reasons. Things have gotten better and worse over the past year and a half and right now, I'm not in crisis. Tangent: Even if I have crisis feelings, I wouldn't share with T bc of how he acted last time it happened. He stopped seeing me as a person and only saw me a problem to solve, to cover his assets (at least that's how it felt to me). We've talked about and he's apologized and said he would do things differently, if there were another time./End Tangent

All of that said, the reasons I see him twice a week are because things in my life outside of therapy stink, including my marriage, my family, and my work. I also have very few friends and no family. I also have a lot of childhood trauma that has come to surface in the past six months that I have adequately grieved or even really talked about. I also have some deeply heald core beliefs that I'd like help changing. We've worked on these issues some, but not adequately for me to feel the growth I'd like. There is sill a lot of stuff that I want to fix in therapy.

Some days are still crisis days and days I feel like giving up or not going on. Those weeks, the second day is life preserving and helps me find strength to forward. Other weeks, the second visit is just a comfortable place to talk about hard things.

Therapist asked me if I thought the 2nd session per week was warranted and told me that I was his only client with whom he had that arrangement, He said we could talk about it next time. I got really emotional and told him it wasn't fair to drop something like that on the way out the door. I was so caught of guard by his question, that my initial reaction was to quit all therapy and give up. Then I wanted to agree with him and quit seeing him twice a week and not talk about it. Now I'm not sure what to do. I don't know why I feel hurt and rejected by his suggestion. I am capable of going a week between sessions, I just don't want to. Please help me understand myself, my feelings and the situation. Is t rejecting me or trying to get me to go away? Does he have an ulterior motive? Am I bad for using therapy as a place to through things? Any and all comments would be appreciated.