im a 38 year old female. Have always been against affairs but during my last manic ended up having an affair. I did try to tell my husband my emotional needs were not being met and i was desperate for attention but because he's probably used to me sounding desperate and needy he probably didn't take me seriously.
Having fallen back down in to a severe depression i now deeply regret the affair and don't understand why i let myself do it. My husband doesn't really forgive me and is just staying around for the kids. My life is a mess and I've brought it all on myself!
Now i have to deal with not just him torturing me about the affair but my mind convincing me i am a bad person now.

This illness is very lonely and isolating, its the worst part of it that no one really understands.