In our young system years...the way we operate, function, kept secret out of fear of discovery, ridicule, judgement, and attention by outside eyes...we new we had others at 15 (come to find out that there are literally hundreds of us in a poly fragmented kind of way), so worked together to appear to be as a singleton through denial of ourselves. As a whole we were withdrawn, conditioned, we worked silently like, it was a mutual agreement to try to appear normal.

Being aware of each other and connected, we do seamless switching....others jumping in as needed on the fly without acknowledgement....focused on singleness...of one contrived conscience even to fool ourselves, keeping up the illusion that we were "normal"....we did okay, we still was considered strange. We didn't appear to really get it together until our late 20's because we were so emotionally stunted.

Our theme is an agreed upon public image. Like we are going to do this and appear like that and walk like this...playing the part...we discussed it. It got difficult at times and felt so fake. The school years were the hardest...we endured public abuse too, picked on and laughed at ....we was suffering PTSD from the home abuse....all of us...we all felt it.

It wasn't till recent that the cat got out of the bag and that we acknowledged our system and each other after years of systematic denial. Now we're comfy in talking about it on here, but still adhere to the rules in our day to day public living.

I hope that helps to explain our crazee.