It's just showing me what an outsider I really am. All the people who pretended to be friends but never really were. All the parties and weddings I never attended and parents I never met. My own family pushes me away. I'm just not a person anyone really wants to be around. People hate me and don't know why, I've been told. Really my life is just sad. I so wish I could stop being me.

I don't even get invited to class reunions. My parents, Mom now still lives at the house they built. Was once told they didn't know how to reach me.