Oh, I'm really nervous around people I don't know too. I get very tense. I can't smile! I forget how. :/

I haven't been anywhere for my back except to get MRI's. Oh, actually there was a doctor I used to go to about 5 years ago. Unfortunately the only thing he recommended was a cortisone shot which I couldn't get because I had no one to go with me (plus I was afraid of it). I can't afford to go to anyone privately. I'm getting bottom of the barrel care now.

I hope you'll go to that place you mentioned tomorrow even if there's a long bus ride involved. I used to take the bus to art galleries when I last lived in Chicago, and it was nice. I didn't meet anyone on my outings but I enjoyed it anyway.