I agree with direction, all that worrying can't possibly be doing you any good. And a good therapist can be more helpful in some cases than a hospital. I've never been hospitalized but a friend of mine has and I've been with her through the whole ordeal. With my friend at least, the hospitalization helped her but only so long as her family upheld what she was told while there. It's all but a short-term recovery...

Also I don't believe it's a certain weight that is the determining factor..moreso I believe it's a combination of mental state, BMI, and recommendations by doctors/therapists/family etc.

Oh, and it is possible to recover without going to a hospital...it is quite difficult...but still possible.

good luck and take care, you are strong enough to fight this and we are all here to help