I live with DID (Multiple personalities) and we all have ways we act out. One of them cuts.
But... every now and then.... there comes a pull, a draw to cut that is.... seemingly ancient, if that makes sense. It has no emotion, no fear, no anxiety, no sense of "what i'm doing is wrong". It feels just old... as old as time.

I'm wondering if anyone else ever feels that? It's really hard for me to fight it off. and I'm usually in trance when it happens, or am quickly pulled in to trance.

This came up this week. Thankfully, when I picked up the phone, my friend answered and talked me back to a more academic discussion.