Addiction is a biatch. It's so hard to break the mental cycle. I crave a different life. I'm going to a meeting tomorrow...it'll suck...yes...but drinking sux too. I was 5 years sober with meetings....if anything...I wasn't drinking.

Find your own thing.

90 day rehab is an option...I've been trying to kill myself with drugs...obviously.

Ummm. Good luck