Sorry stopdog, I didn't understand which therapist you mean.

If you mean my first one, I minded very much. I felt I was "too much" and felt ashamed that intellectualization is so automatic for me. Though normally, I pride myself on being "intellectual" and "well read" (she described me as such) and bristled at the perceived implication that being intellectual was a hindrance to therapy.

I would feel like I was being a "bad" therapy client because "I frustrate even a clinical psychologist" and "even a clinical psychologist finds me irritating and annoying - how unbearable must I be to others not trained in unconditional positive regard?" and I felt as though I must be "disgusting" and "a pain in the butt."

I would also feel angry with myself and with her because I know I was trying my best to lower my defenses, and felt she wasn't trying hard enough. I do know ex T had a lot of supervision and peer consultation about me (she told me) so a part of me felt she wasn't able to help me help myself.