How do you folks know whether you are in a normal good mood, because things are going well, or whether you are hypomanic?
I'm not sure where am i on the spectrum now. I've been feeling really good, excited about life, and energetic for at least a week. Super grateful for all the things that are going well right now, because it's been a very hard, uphill battle to recovery, which felt like would never get better - but it's better now, and it's amazing and incredible, and i really can't believe it. So i don't want to pathologize myself, but i also don't want to cross over into danger...
So - my mood is excellent, and feeling good about myself, and proud of my accomplishments (is that good self esteem or grandiosity?). I am irritable with some people at work, but they are also being legitimately annoying, and i'm getting along with most people. Actually work has been going crazy good, really good feedback, and they are flying me around a bunch in Oct to attend meetings, which has never happened before. I love sleeping once i fall asleep, but i never want to go to sleep because i don't want the days to end, because there is too much i want to do - or even doing nothing is awesome. I love my boyfriend, and we might get married, and we got a new kitten. What else - back to the gym, working out or yoga every day. And tonight i went to an awesome lecture about corruption in psychiatry, which i should start another thread about.
Anyways... Is this hypomania, of gratitude for all the good things happening right now? It sounds hypomanic i know, but maybe that's just because i really appreciate wellness after so long depressed. Hmmmm....
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